I begin by using a quote that inspires me;
“You are so young, so before all beginning, I want to beg you, as much as I can, to be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”
(Rainer Maria Rilke – Letters to a Young Poet, 1929)
I am not sure I qualify as young but this spoke to me, with thanks to the lovely Kim Oliver for sending the book to me. I think it is my emergent strategy. When I studied for my MBA, one of the concepts that came forward was “emergent strategy” described by Mintzberg (1939), as opposed to a planned strategy
As I reflect back on my work (my last job) we spent a lot of time developing the strategy of the organisation, considering the future including a vision and mission with strategic and operational objectives. Many were not achieved fully or as intended, presenting good examples of emergent strategy. I feel sadness that some of the key objectives, whilst there was some progress made towards our vision this will be lost as the organisation has changed shape having a different focus towards a new vision
My life has been turned upside down, I have no idea at times what is going to happen next! Grief can cloud so much. It can get in the way of using your situation towards unexpected goals and ambitions. Thus, managing sadness, grief and the sense of loss has to be done, definitely acknowledging it which is very important, but not letting it get in the way. Claude AnsHin Thomas (2004) said “when you discover the liberation that comes with stopping the struggle and becoming fully present in your own life. This is the real path to peace and freedom”. How true is this for all of us. Now, I do not know what my “fully present” means for me (can any of us understand this without reaching for it), but it noted there is work to do, and I suspect the process will be revealing, healing in its own way. As my good friend Val reflects “there is a balance between acceptance and perseverance. However, accepting that there is no use in my left arm/hand, whilst tottering along on a weak left leg rather like a snail undulating and sliding (yuk, nasty – be careful now Peter you might be reported for “Gastropod phobia” !). It is so tough and painful both physically and emotionally. My room with the answer might be locked at the moment and my patience and faith will be sorely tested but I will continue in the hope that something good and positive will emerge in the course of time.
Peter. May 2021