So, I am aware that my recent blogs may come across as showing sadness, anger and perhaps a little narcissistic. But, no I am not going to apologise for that – I am done with apologies. What I am dealing with is utterly devastating. But this time I want to be more positive, even happy!! I am blessed with a positive, cup half full, personality and this helps me, a little, to deal with my situation.
So, there are goals and aspirations I want to achieve. I am now attending a gym for disabled people (able2b) engaging the services of a great physiotherapist and personal trainer, Scott and Gill. I am working on trying to walk without a quad stick (a bit scary!) and using a treadmill and fixed cycle (a motomed) to get some cardiovascular exercise. I do worry about sitting down for most of the day, I don’t want to become too over weight – eating cake and drinking my lattes. My heart needs to have exercise and a good diet. I have an initial goal of reducing my weight and keeping it down and I am not doing too badly, I think anyway. I do have other goals and aspirations, but that can wait for another blog.
Every Tuesday and Thursday I go to Norwich to attend the gym. It is a 2-hour session with an additional 2 hours of travel. I don’t begrudge this but sometimes I feel that everything I do is stroke related. I am not enthusiastic about going, neither of us are, but once the session is over I do feel invigorated and encouraged about my progress; and, of course, it has to be celebrated around the corner with a good coffee! Scott and Gill do push me ( in a positive way) which leaves me somewhat exhausted but elated at what I am beginning to achieve. Onwards and upwards.
A quote from a little book by Desmond Tutu:
Laughing with God
The audience had a wonderful capacity to laugh… it seemed extraordinary, this gift of laughter in the midst of so much anguish. Perhaps, as has sometimes been remarked, we laugh only, because if we did not, we would cry and cry.
‘forward’, in Nelson Mandela.
How true is that!